The Path I Had Feared to See

"Many people want to direct God, instead of resigning themselves to be directed by Him: to show Him a way, instead of passively following where He leads" ~Madam Guyon

I said: "Let me walk in the field";
God said: "Nay, walk in the town";
I said: "there are no flowers there";
He said: "No flowers, but a crown."

I said: "But the sky is black,
There is nothing but noise and din" ;
But He wept as He sent me back,
"There is more," He said, "There is sin."

I said: "But the air is thick,
And fogs are veiling the sun";
He answered; "Yet souls are sick,
And souls in the dark undone."

I said: "I shall miss the light,
And friends will miss me, they say";
He answered me, "Choose tonight,
If I am to miss you, or they."

I pleaded for time to be given;
He said: "Is it hard to decide?
It will not seem hard in Heaven
To have followed the steps of your Guide."

I cast one look a the fields,
Then set my face to the town;
He said: "My child, do you yield?
Will you leave the flowers for the crown?"

Then into His hand went mine,
And into my heart came He;
And I walk in the light Divine,
The path I had feared to see.

~George MacDonald